Glutton - Part 14

I find myself exhausted.

Weary.

I am so very tired of :

Proclamations
Zumba
B-12
Chicken breasts
Resolutions
Gym memberships
Dr Oz
Slim Fast
Green tea
Calorie counting
Yoga Mats
Women's magazines
Infomercials
Carb counting
Tony Horton
Mondays
Anything titled "Turbo"
Fat gram counting
Spanx
The Biggest Loser
Medifast
'skinny' jeans
Guilt
New Year's Eve
The scale
Jenny Craig
Pilates
Excuses
Arbitrary deadlines
Oprah
Lean Cuisine
New Year's Day
Shunning the scale
Giant T-shirts
Paleo
Nutri-System
Atkins
Three way mirrors
Treadmills
Friggin water
Rice cakes
Skim Milk
Special K
Fat free sour cream (not so much tired of this as I am convinced it should not exist)
Hiding
Failure

And I know that whining is not the solution.  This is the solution:

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.
Matthew 11:28-29

The truth is that I have been wandering in this desert for FAR too long.  And it is killing me. I feel that it is finally time to stop focusing on hunger and concentrate on my thirst.  I am spiritually, mentally and emotionally dehydrated.  I am so blessed to have family and friends who 'splash' me every day with love, acceptance, wisdom and support.  But at the end of it all, this is not their problem.  I am the one in the desert.  And I know the only way to survive is to get to the well.

Jesus answered her, “If you knew the gift of God and who it is that asks you for a drink, you would have asked him and he would have given you living water.”
“Sir,” the woman said, “you have nothing to draw with and the well is deep. Where can you get this living water?  Are you greater than our father Jacob, who gave us the well and drank from it himself, as did also his sons and his livestock?”
Jesus answered, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again,  but whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
John 4:10-14